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"I've only lived 18 years, but I don't want to change any of them. They're all part of my life, even the failures." -Makise Kurisu
Admittedly I've already covered this one to a certain extent in my blog about family, but I'll do my best to not repeat things. That being said let's dive into the second part of my eight part series, this one being about Friendship.
Friendship didn't always come easy for me. I've always had friends but it wasn't till around 7th grade that I had a "friend group". Before that I had one or two really close friends that I would hangout with every weekend and try to meet up with after school. Once 7th grade hit my... I don't want to say former best friend cause he and I are still close, but we haven't been as close as we used to ever since he had to go out of town for college, anyway my other best friend Steve introduced me to who would become my first/only girlfriend and my ex. Than we made friends with the guy that stole Steve's lunchbox every lunch, not hyperbole it was in fact every lunch, Barr (he's also named Nick so we call him by his last name. Than came in Mike, than the two Ryan's, than Josh. By freshman year I had a group of pretty good people to hangout with. Than by the end of the first year of college, Josh had become an intolerable jackass, Mike showed his true colors as a manipulative asshole, Hom (one of the Ryan's) and I just drifted apart, and after a year of dating my ex and I broke up. During that first year of college however I met a few new friends as well. After awkwardly walking up to the three of the them while they were playing Yu-Gi-Oh (never too old for a card game especially since Yu-Gi-Oh nowadays take a freaking math degree to understand). Alex, Peter, and Eric were soon integrated with my core friend group. From there came Ellie and my soon to be current best friend and Eric's girlfriend Katie. Now we cut to about two years later and well... Peter and Ellie walked away from the group because (and this is an unfortunate theme throughout the past few years) people couldn't be adults and talk their shit out. Alex revealed himself to be a very toxic person to be around and we said our goodbyes to him last winter. Now though, we have Eric's brother EJ, Emily, someone Barr, Travers (second Ryan), and myself went to high school with and Jyn (another Katie and Travers' girlfriend) in the group. So the question is why would I go through this long backstory for this blog. Why divulge what some could say has been a mixed bag of luck in keeping friends and picking friends. Well to obviously illustrate some kind of point. Honestly that should be pretty obvious. Friendship to me is one of the most important things in the world. The support of a friend can mean so much more than a family member's. There is no obligation any friend has to help you through your rough times, to pick you up when you fall. Good friends will be around when you get back up on your feet, those you can call family will help you stand back up. Take Katie for instance. The night of my narrative essay I was a wreck. She was the first person I told and she was the one that checked on me the most afterwards. Steve was there for me when my ex and I broke up. Eric has seen through the masks I wear more than anyone else. Barr is always the first to motivate me to try something new. Emily is the first to point out bullshit and put an end to it. EJ and Jyn are amazing example of what it means to be an 'adult' while still being a kid at heart. Travers has had my back several times over the years. Other than my parents I couldn't even begin to make similar praises about my family, let alone my extended family. I couldn't say similar things about any of the people I've worked with over the past few years or the people I've gamed with online. Friendship can be the strongest and most rewarding thing in the world, but as I've shown it can also be the most fragile thing to hold on to. I've had friends come and go for a multitude of reasons some good and some not so good. It's the one that have stuck around through my worst times and continue to root for me for my best times are the one that are wroth keeping, They are worth the trouble. They are worth the headaches. They are worth the heartaches. They are worth everything they've put me through and they are worth everything I've put them through. Alright. So THIS derailed a little bit. The point is that friends will always be there, when you're doubting yourself even when they are struggling themselves. If you can find a good group, real fucking good group of people hold onto them. Work through the shit that tries to pull you apart and come out stronger because of it.
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Nick D'AversaWriter, outstandingly good at mouthing along to songs, level 9 Dragonborn Blood Hunter, and just trying to figure out what in the hell I'm doing. Archives
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